The Bitter*Sweet ~~

Appreciate. . .

2012-02-04T10:31:00.000-08:00

Here it goes, the 15 days of Chinese New Year. Really, as compared to the past 2 years, this is the one which give me no time to think off board. Been hanging around with friends for quite many days. Seriously, we don't have much chances to spend days like how we did. As we grow, we have our own different path which will be even harder to get along. The same old brunch of friends... love them very much. =)

Just came home from Juede's place. Been years since the last time I met up with him. My big brother. Serious, he does treat me like his sister. Appreciate it. met up with Arvindran and Bryan Chan whom can't recognize me. Sad. Still, happy to see them. =)

Previous day and monday went house-to-house to get red packets. was fun and tiring.

Day before, went badminton and gathering. aching. =O

All this, can say that it will only happen once a year during special occasion like CNY. but still, glad to see them now, because getting more and more people is flying away.

Appreciate the friendship we together shared. please make it last. All the best friends ! =)

There's something that we can't effort to miss.

2012-02-01T08:55:00.000-08:00

I've always felt a need to really get along with friends in this long long holiday of mine. and you bet, I really did. =) nice to see them, although not as much talking like how we did in school. still, the familiar faces. brings me comfort.

Recently have been thinking a lot. Many has changed, neither good nor bad. I'm just still learning from the corner, because I felt it's now necessary for me to at least care for the others feeling. especially my family members. I used to wonder, am I the only one who still misses my grandfather so much that when I see some old uncle walking pass in the mall catches my eyes? looking at my grandmother's wrinkled hand remind me of his hand? Yea, I miss you so much. and it seems everyone misses you. Still, I always tell myself that you're in a better place watching us and I'll always smile just like the way I smile to you.

A gift to me...

2012-01-27T08:44:00.000-08:00

Ever since she entered uni, we don't seems to share much now. But I'm still glad that she still care for me, as always. =) My dearest sister. Thanks !

Thanks for giving me so many advise. helping me to chop off the bad wrong thoughts. listen to my feelings. and see me crying like baby but didn't hand in any tissue. =(

Had been so long since our last midnight chat, never know how much she had gone through in this few months. I knew we have different characters, we solve problem in different way. You never have much choices because to them you're a much matured thinker compared to me and I, always chose to step aside. wanted to be naive and innocent as before. I'm sorry to make you suffer alone most of the time and really, I can understand your pain.

Chose to pretend not knowing the truth doesn't mean I don't care. Even when I get to know the truth, what can I do ? We can't make any changes but just to listen. To see the breaking parts of it, I knew everyone's heart is aching. but it wasn't on our decision. All we can do is try to make them smile.

Dear sis, I'm glad that you shared. although I don't help much, but I'll support you and always ready to listen to you. =) love you sis. <3

To love is to see the world in a beautiful way

2012-01-25T09:37:00.000-08:00

To love is to see the world in a beautiful way. That's the way I'm practicing now.

It's true that I can't control what people thought I was thinking. although I wish to explain, but I'm sure it will not come to any conclusion.

I'm glad that there is still chances for me to make things back to the way it is. I truly treasure the friendship we together owned. please, don't make it awkward.

2012-01-01T07:38:00.000-08:00

Drank wine on the last day of 2011, ate scrumptious food on the first day of 2012..

hmm~ maybe this is a sign of good start ? =D

The End

2011-12-15T07:49:00.000-08:00

Never ever thought that this is the end of my form 6's life, It has been a special one and a half year for me. Looking back in who I were in the past, I knew myself has grown up much more. To love myself more.

Just when I handed up my last paper at 4pm, Hui Qian started to ask her friend out for a trip. But I wasn't as happy as I should. Thinking that it'll be the last day for me to put on this school pinafore, walking in school as an officially student.. that is my last day to see my friends as students. Full of regrets.

I kept wonder, must it take years to know a friend, to get close, to share, to be like a family ? Yes, it does. Our bonding not as strong as any chemical bonds, even in a class of 20 students. It's still the same. Not because that they're not friendly to the others, but just because we're all shy and quiet. =)

One thing that I felt comfortable with them even we're not close is that we helped each other without hesitating. especially those genius in class, they never keep knowledge for themselves. I truly appreciate what they shared.

We together bullied by seniors during orientation.. being 'forced' to perform on stage, singing indian song which I never thought I would try.. Kill crickets, frogs and rats which I don't think that will happen in my daily life.. Plants & insects collection which lead us to be so alerts with the presence of insects.. PBSM activities, always hoping the best for the others.. RnD presentation with my best partner, Sze Yuen.. Majlis mohon restu... we shared lots of joy, hardwork.... we hold on with each other, even when we're facing tons obstacles.

Get to met this group of friends, I felt grateful. They're unique which I can tell even when I don't talk much with some of them. With them, I can still smile, laugh like I always do. With them, I'm playful. With them, I tears.

Most unique thing in form 6 will be the dedicated teachers. They're always there to help you, no matter how active you're in class. They know you well. Bio teacher, Pn. Then knowing that I'm worried. Pn. Lee, chem teacher, always try her best to help. Pn. Lourett, math teacher, knowing my biggest challenge which is my weakest point. Pn. Cheah, whom love to call my name, giving us all, helping us. They are all the best teacher I ever met.

I've learnt a lot here.

And I'm really grateful that I'm here in this world.

Thanks~ <3

Pissed off

2011-10-10T10:04:00.000-07:00

Now I can see how people behave differently....

I don't ask for repay, but at least appreciate what I did for you ! not trying to be proud of how comfortable you're right now!

Wasted my whole study week to be your full-time driver and deliver, but you're having your own sweet time with your friends on fb.... showing your arrogant attitude.... 'pretending' like in stress.... I'm totally pissed.

I knew I can never ever make you understand how to behave as you should, but don't ever try to challenge my limits. I should be busy with my own studies but in fact I'm doing like your personal assistant..... but I have no words to say since they still think you're in stress. ARE YOU?!

I'll see what you going to do after your exam.

The different between the elder and the younger ones' : the younger ones' will take whatever it comes to them. without saying thank you.

Big Sigh

2011-09-20T10:09:00.000-07:00

3 weeks for 8 papers. somehow I feel like it's just a waste of time. It would be better if the 3 weeks are meant for revision ! My outcome ? will only be a big sigh... I can only blame myself for not putting any effort, even when it is a trial... when will I learn my lesson?

So many things happened in this 3 weeks, I'm supposed to be study, study & study... but I just couldn't make it. They said sacrifice to success, no TV, no fb, no outing, no craziness, don't care about anything around you?... how many of you really can do it? I salute them.

Despite of preparing for Bio paper 2, I was 'forced' to go out to watch movie just because of my aunt saying "dont kckc lar, no point to study right now.."?

Then came to the last 2 papers. Which I guess I totally didn't revise... all because I wasn't around?

SEE? so many explanation I can do now but I couldn't do properly in my essay writing? How clever I'm...... =/

Anyway, no point to discuss about it anymore !

Have you ever imagine that one day, after you woke up... your legs is no more with you, and you're tell that you couldn't walk since then? I guess i'll be very unhappy. This should be how my cousin's wife felt right now, just because of an accident.

Then, my grandma felt down and broke her knee cap(right), again... rushed back to hometown to take care of her because, it seems like they don't really bother about her. Can even go for a family trip when she is in hospital alone if we didn't rush home... I can't stop thinking of her after knowing that she felt down. First thing in my mind was, how nice if my grandpa is here.. atleast, she's not alone.. I knew this remind her of the 1st broken knee cap.... We accompany her for 3 days, saw how the long tube dragged out from her leg, how she went through the physio treatment... yea, her leg is weak, because she used to depend on her right leg, now... I don't know what she can depend on. Now, I think she is ok, discharged, sent her to my aunt house... thank god she still have my aunt to take care of her. Thank You.

2011-08-28T06:25:00.000-07:00

若是放下了。那，何必逃避？

Swiss roll

2011-08-03T08:54:00.000-07:00

The past incident was on 22 Aug 2009, when I was about to sit for my SPM trial.... then, this stupid theft broke into my house... & now, 1 Aug 2011, when I was about to be on my bed... damn theft trying to steal my sis myvi ! !@#$%%^*($!

luckily, myvi still very much alive here with us.... if not, I'm going to curse for the 2nd time. =X

If I am still the LEYI back then, I must be very moody right now... thinking why will this stuff happen on us... of so many cars but they chose ours ? does it make sense ? but................. I am glad that I'm still able to hide the stupid thoughts behind my smile. =)

I'm not in the situation whereby still able to think of this matter. We are running out of time. especially with my slow pace.... so, left it behind. (even when it's difficult)

......

Been here in batu 8 for more than 1 year. yea. not much the same as before...

but still, i'll treasure every moment here with my dearest form6 friends. =)

have fun while we are suffering. ^^V

I remember how was I being so playful when I am in seksyen 4... sweetest time ever !!! XD *evil laugh* really. being playful does make me feel better in some way. can release stress. and seeing everyone laughing.... =) makes me wanna smile too. =D

Ps : to the "stalker".... have fun following what I post ya !! hehe. =)

but not to anyone else.

Michelle : super junior KYUHYUN <3 !!! =P

2011-07-16T08:51:00.000-07:00

The best things in life are unexpected - because there were no expectations.

2011-07-11T05:00:00.000-07:00

我知道了。

我明白了。

谢谢你。

你是真真的快乐吗？

2011-06-08T11:55:00.000-07:00

我真的很喜欢这样的感觉

这种发出内心笑出来的快乐

知道吗？不久以前，我遗失了。

很多事情，因为时间，而慢慢的转变。

很多时候，我也矛盾，难过，想放弃。

可是，很幸运的。我并没有。

我明白，很多事情… 或许与你想象中来的复杂，让你很痛苦。

也可能，一些事情… 或许使你耿耿于怀，让你放不下。

但，有没有想过……

或许是自己太执着呢？

还是是自己太过于在意呢？

其实，发生过的事，可能刻骨铭心。

有些话，有些委屈，可能让你很难受。

不过，又何必为那一些而愁呢？

身边不是也有快乐的事情正在等着你吗？

笑，是上天赐给我们的礼物，

让微笑带过一切，把心张开，

我们并不孤单，只因为我们都是地球人。

我们都有朋友，亲人，爱人，

他们都愿意永远的陪在你身边~

Dear oh holiday

2011-06-03T12:37:00.001-07:00

I'm always waiting for a holiday, and now.. here it is ! 2 weeks

BUT.... the work is still not done yet. =(

I plan to give myself few days rest b4 doing all the works and now, going back to penang, meeting up with my dad's best buddy and many more coming~

when can I start doing it ? Not even one is done. sigh.

what a pathetic life ! T.T

left only 1 weeks... not even enough for me to complete the work. =X

....

many things happened lately, like always... I chose to step aside.

still, there is something to cheer too. XD

I remembered my chemistry teacher asked us a question : Have you ever regret ? on choosing form 6 ?

I always said this

{ even when I can't get good result, but atleast.. I knew one new bunch of friends. I'll never regret}

yea. I believe I wont regret. Had chosen. Decision on me. =)

Things will be fine in the end.. rite ?

We always supporting each other... <3

Never give up. &

I believe in you. =)

Sigh~

2011-05-27T12:05:00.000-07:00

We shared the common.

typing out our feeling using fingers instead of the typical story telling...

not that we're hiding.

It's just sometimes, whatever we said... people will never trust you.

because they believe in you..

that you'll not/never behave like this..........

2011-04-19T08:59:00.000-07:00

最幸福的事莫过于拥有关心你的父母

最幸福的事莫过于拥有关心你的朋友

最幸福的事是我们可以为我们的未来带来美好的回忆

因为一切事情都掌握在自己的手掌里

=）

I'm ok, trust me !

2011-04-09T09:53:00.000-07:00

I don't know why am I this weak.

I don't want to just shed tears when people said something which break my heart.

I don't get it why will I started to care of what the other think of me.

I don't understand why they love to compare.

Yea. I'm not as good as they are.

Yea. I'm not as intelligent as they are.

But, so what ?

I never had a chance to tell you my truth feeling,

I can't express myself in front of you,

because you will never understand.

You never tried to stand in my shoe.

I have go beyond the line,

trying to see from your position,

but I see non.

Non that related to knowing me more.

I'm glad that you're there to care for me,

I'm happy to know you're actually knowing me better than I thought,

but do you know what I want?

I just want you to stop comparing.

I'm tired to work towards the others.

I just want to work on my way.

without pushing me.

because,

if you push me, I'll fall.

Please....

can you listen to me once?

Just once.

< I'm ok, trust me... just expressing my feeling.>

Losing Myself

2011-03-22T06:55:00.000-07:00

I dislike, hate it when teachers stressing on "you're science 1 !"

Do they ever wonder that I'm arranged in here doesn't mean I'm as good as the others ?

I'm not the genius, that can get straight A's, the flawless, or near flawless result ....

Why do they have this thinking that being a science 1 student, You definitely did well in SPM, with 6A's +.... @@ come on!

this did not push me to anywhere, but getting lost lost lost in nowhere.

I wanna find back those memories, that I can jokes around with friends, not sitting there to look at others doing homework, I can't !

I wanna be like myself, never scared of failing, never feel like this, I don't want to be such a passive one !

I wanna jump around, never care of the reputation, won't get scolded when I behave this way, I don't want to be like grown up, being forced !

I just wanna studying while having fun, having fun while studying....

I want to be in the class like b4, when teacher never border too much about the grades.........

OMG~

微笑的嘴角

2011-02-27T07:23:00.000-08:00

或许我们曾经被伤害，或是伤害过他人。

或许我们曾经很难受，或是让他人很痛苦。

但是，也就是因为这一些回忆，

为我们的未来画上多一笔美丽的故事，

因为那上天赐的缘分，

让我们体会。

那过去，

总会让我们莫名的微笑。=）

14 FEB

2011-02-15T08:02:00.000-08:00

It has been a year, officially one year. that you left us.

Many things changed. when you're not around.

2011's CNY, another cny with different mood. we planned to celebrate it like few years back.

Watched movie in cinema, played badminton, go sing k together include grandma, n gamble to spend our time.

Yet, still lack of someone waiting to take picture on the 1st day, giving the red packets to everyone of us, waiting us to come home for reunion dinner, waiting to enjoy the scrumptious reunion dinner.... it's so different now.

Sister kept on going up n down to get a chance to take the photo, it seems like everyone of us, trying to run away from it... pity her.

Today, my teacher discuss about something related to my weakest point. saying we might wants to become a doctor when we see our grandparents suffering in the hospital. and suddenly, all the scenes reappeared.

Grandpa, i miss you . We miss you very much.

But we'll live our life better. even when we still shed our tears when seeing those photos we took together. even when I always thinking back the sweet memories we had together. I'll stay strong and happy. =)

Life is tough, we're tougher ! =)

2011-02-01T08:41:00.000-08:00

When life gives you a 100 reasons to cry,

show life that you have 1000 reasons to smile.

Face your past without regret.

Handle your present with confidence.

Prepare for the future without fear.

Keep the faith and drop the fear.

The most beautiful thing is to see a person smiling...
And even more beautiful is,

knowing that you are the reason behind it!!!

Smile ~ stay strong ! =)

2011-01-20T10:01:00.000-08:00

I kept telling myself.

Never Ever let yourself fall again.

& I always hope myself will do it as said before.

So Please. do not let yourself struggle again !

Nice tasks given.

2011-01-17T09:58:00.000-08:00

Allow me to share something here again.

Have you ever think of something nice in everyone you know ?

This might be an interesting topic thou.

I'm glad that after so many years, there's actually a teacher will still think of this way...

I really appreciate it, although the method she used ain't the same as my previous experience.

A few years back, one of my teacher gave us a task...

She wants us to write down at least one good thing to say to your friends.. which is kept anonymous.

Personally, I love it so much... not to say that i'm happy because been praised like an 'angel' !

but, sometimes, your friends actually do look into you. They treat you like a friend. they even understand you more then you think.

That's why, when it comes to friendship. I'm really stubborn. which I can't deny it.

This year, beloved Pn.Cheah gave us this task again...

but, she arranged the 'new friend' that you have to get along to...

then we have to tell in the class... what is the nice thing in your friend.

We all. together. actually get along more than before.

We jokes, we laugh, and even.. we agreed with the nice thing within a person.

I'm just so happy seeing all of us laughing in the class. trying to waste teacher's teaching lesson. but always.. tak jadi !

btw, I always got this feeling,that teacher's going to call me.

ALWAYS. and same goes with this.

Fate.

Insect collection !!!

2011-01-06T08:27:00.000-08:00

I forgotten to took a picture of our plant collection.. =(

I love the album very much..

All our 'hard work' do pay off !!! =D

....

Then, insect collection.. which our group ( Shuk Thing, Shu-Yi, Sze Yuen, Yee Kha + me), only spend RM 4.20...

And we're proud to announced that all, ALL of the insect in there were caught of us.

Tah Da!!!

I'm lovin it~ <3

さようなら 2010 !

2010-12-30T08:48:00.000-08:00

I have been through quite something in 2o1o,

something unbelievable !

This was a special year. where CNY falls on Valentine's.

and that was the day, where my dearest grandpa went to a better place.

We shed tears, but we were stronger since then.

We had promised to live on with his spirit, and we will be. =)

This was the year, where my cousin, my sis and I went Australia for a trip in March till April.

We had learned quite a lot there, learn to be a better person.

We fooled around, shared some secret together, since then, we got closer. =)

Then, I have taken another route of my life - entering form 6 life.

People said this was a stupid pathway, but how sure are you ?

I would say, life in here was tough, but we are tougher ! =)

I'm sure we can do it ! even when we kept falling.

I have some unspeakable word deep inside my heart.

and I have learned to say it out one by one. even when it's hard for me.

My friend and I, didn't get to meet up.

But I believe, we are never apart,

for friendship doesn't count miles, its measured by the heart ! =)

Happy New Year !

& keep on fighting ________ till the end ! =D

stay strong everyone !

2010-12-21T09:18:00.000-08:00

2010's winter solstice ...
It's very different compared to the previous 17 years ...
This year, we are not allowed to prepare 'tang yuen', because, some reason.
We used to have so much fun when it come to the proses of making the balls.
Well, It's different.
But, we're living with your spirit even when you went to somewhere else. =)

The hidden meaning

2010-12-21T08:34:00.000-08:00

I've read back some of the oldest post of mine...
It really do reminded me of something which I almost forgotten. in details.
sometimes. things happen with a reason. or should I say most of the times.
It's just the matter of how fast/slow you realize it.
And, I have to admit... I'm always the slow one. =X
But,~~live life with no regrets~~ !
It doesn't seems to be a good quote. I do have regret in my life)
Don't let the regrets stop you from moving forward ! =)
This is something I'll like to share once again !
I personally love it very much !

Don't ever forget that you are unique
Be your best self
and not an imitation of someone else
Find your strengths
and use them in a positive way
Don't listen to those
who ridicule the choices you make
Travel the road that you have chosen
and don't look back with regret
You have to take chances
to make your dreams happen
Remember that there is plenty of time
to travel another road - and still another -
in your journey through life
Take the time to find the route
That is right for you
You will learn something valuable
from every trip you take
so don't be afraid to make mistakes
Tell yourself that you're okay
Just the way you are
make friend who respect your true self
Take the time to be alone, too
so your own company can be
Remember that being lonely
it can be a beautiful experience
of finding your creativity
your heartfelt feelings
and the calm and quiet peace deep inside you
please don't ever forget that you are special
and very much loved

and this... Is something I wish to tell ...
Stay strong !

What if

2010-12-15T09:08:00.000-08:00

What if I made a choice for my own ?

What if I never care about the feeling of others ?

What if wishes all came true ?

What if a miracle appeared ?

I imagine.. the picture in my mind.

But, sorry.

2010-12-09T08:23:00.000-08:00

Ask you a question.

Do I look like I don't understand Chinese ? (ofcoz I do .)

It's so weird when someone think I don't understand my own mother tongue ! =(

The obstacles

2010-12-06T07:48:00.000-08:00

Do you understand the peoples around you ? I thought I do. Now, I think I don't..

Being the optimistic one really... I've no more other words but anger. Damn.

Currently busy rushing up the R&D project. I don't think I'm having a hard time.Except, waiting for them to reply your mail.It really took them years to reply one ! Really, I'm doing fine with it.

Calling them, chat with them.. I'm having my fun time thou. Now, we plan to pay a visit. who knows ? The obstacle that stopped me ain't the manager, ain't my partner schedule. but, my mom saying NO ! May I know what is going on ? I don't mind driving on my own, I don't mind going to and fro. Why ? I don't get it ? She is afraid that I got lost ? afraid that we're only 2 small girls ? I'm tired arguing with her because of this stupid thing. I just wish my project to be simply... good. That's all. I don't want anything to stop me from making it as I wish. Oh, please. give me a break.

2010-12-06T06:17:00.000-08:00

Stay Strong !

2010-11-05T10:24:00.000-07:00

Our life is like a book filled with n chapters...
Every chapter played a song...
Every song have different melody.
Every melody, will be sang by different man.
We shared our stories. good nor bad~
just like we're the blue sky n clouds...
I'm happy to share and say to my dear friends,
you guys were parts of my life!! =)
(something to be proud of !!! XD)
Life ain't any routine of work. It filled with joy...
I appreciate everything that happened or happening...
I appreciate everyone I've meet n going to meet...
I understood..
everyone makes mistake,
we just have to stand up & move forward.

I love to complain about my life.
but, I know, I'm doing my life great ! =)

2010-11-02T07:33:00.000-07:00

Don't worry, We'll be alright~

Lesson #1

2010-10-28T00:19:00.000-07:00

FINALs ....

What can I say more ?

SCREWED UP all my papers.

T.T

Something must have went wrong...

I cant even keep my eye open when I planned to stay up late to study.

!@#$%^&*(

What's happening ?

Worst come to the worst,

I didnt finish my paper.

Really don't know how to face the result...

Lesson #1 : Don't ever think the paper is easy.

Don't think that you can actually answer those question

without studying. maybe you can, but. I CAN'T

我 beh tahan 了

2010-10-17T08:19:00.000-07:00

为何人生就不能安安静静的呢?
为何人生就不能简简单单的呢?
为何人生就不能快快乐乐的呢?

我只想活在自己的世界.
不想有陌生人的打岔.
不想被他们而分心.
不想因为他们而觉得不自在.
不想觉得他们烦 .

我只要做我自己.
不想被些眼睛盯着.
不想被那些简讯给吵醒.
因为我需要的是我的床 !!!

救命啊~ =(

Everything seems to be on their right track ?

2010-10-14T07:47:00.000-07:00

Have you seen my face in red ?

I'm actually curious about it thou.. hehe.

Anyway,

I had a great Tuesday in school with all the form 6'es during co-co.

because I'm having all the funs to fool around and that make me think of my former school life~*missing those days*

really wish to have more of this day to come. rather than just study, study, STUDY !

yea ~ I love to lie ! bluff ! n fool around ! jumping here & there.. =D

seriously, I dont think making the others go to the wrong checkpoint was a bad idea. Atleast, I know they trust my words. LOL *evil*

then, played volleyball... PAIN yet fun... XD

Finally, Thursday has come to an end..

sat for the muet speaking test this morning.

One thing, waiting in the waiting room ain't fun at all.

once the bell ring, u can feel yourself shaking. oh no ! oh no !

the worse part is, mine group was the last group.

imagine~ waited in there for so long !! @@

At the end, I'm happy to announce....

I finished my speaking test ! XD

although I don't know my grade.

but who cares ! what has done is done.

never felt this nervous before.

( maybe this causes my face to be red.)

what I remembered was,

I'm jumping n smiling like an idiot then I came out from the room.

then my friend said my face was so red.

(I wanted to see how red is it ! ) =S

& I just keep repeating that I'm done, I'm done ! =X

Hah.2morrow !!! FRIDAY !! cant wait for my primary class gathering !! ><

ciao now, have to do some last minute study ! =X

A long time ago ~ there're cuts and bruises .... now, is't healing ?

2010-10-06T07:40:00.000-07:00

Guess this is my 1st time ever feel like crying when I'm doing my maths. T.T

really got lots of ? ? ? above my head !

please. save me ! =(

Don't frown ...

2010-10-01T08:58:00.000-07:00

...you never know who is falling in love with your smile ! =)

My mood is always like riding a roller coaster.

Up, Down, Twist, & Turn ...

Really having a hard time struggling with my mom's attitude.

can't really bear with the nonsense ... =(

still. have to control myself from overreacting, control my anger.

*better work it out !! *

Just read through my few previous post.

remind me of the tough side of myself.

since when i fell ? until this terrible situation ?

i thought i said I'm back to be a better person ?

Really need some resting to clear my mind.

cannot remain this weak. I'll figure it out.

find a new way to survive through it !

I WILL ~

Oh Onion !

2010-09-25T07:10:00.000-07:00

Back to school ain't fun at all. =(
5 days stay for 3 days. then replacement class on Saturday. Wth.
please. I just need another 24 hours to have a good sleep on my beloved bed. * yawning *

oh dear. do you know why I titled it as OH ONION ?
being the good girl helping my mom to slice the onion.
the tears just came & wondering in my eyes.
who knows. I nearly chop off my finger !! bleeding~ =(
clumsy ~ speechless.

2010-09-20T08:00:00.000-07:00

Always see things in a different angle.

but I guess, sometimes.
it's worse in the other angle ! =(

Aren't it better ?

2010-09-17T13:30:00.000-07:00

What if you keep away secret of someone from that someone ?
aren't it better ?
for not knowing the truth ? for to live with no worries ?

What if the secret is spread to only people around you but not to you ?
aren't it better ?
for making you stay happy like you always do.

What if the secret will not being pass around, from ones to another ?
aren't it better ?
for the sake of adding own stories nor making the situation worst.

I can feel.
everyone around me starting to get annoy with this issue.

Can't bear with it anymore !

2010-09-17T13:19:00.000-07:00

since when I started to bother bout it ?
since when I started to care ?

I always knew that this world is unfair.
but why do I feel so angry nowadays ?
how can I do well when I knew that it's not the matter of effort I input ?
how far can I control myself from overreacted from what you've said ?

I always think I can make a lil different.
Yet, things around me kept reminding me.
''you're just what I think you're.''

see, now I'm overreacted... again ! =(

Let's be thankful ~

2010-09-09T11:22:00.000-07:00

Stop talking about the past since you can't return back.
You can't do anything but to feel the pain in your heart.

So true, yet say ease than do.

I wish there will always a second chance when never I did nor say something wrong,
I wish there were a time machine for me to return to the past.
Still, have to be thankful.
by the fact that I can only live my life once ! =)

stay strong.
always stay happy !

2010-09-05T08:39:00.000-07:00

总以为自己已恨下心
但
发觉
自己时不时还在关心你的消息

David Choi - By My Side

2010-09-03T10:48:00.000-07:00

David Choi - You Can Win

2010-09-03T09:14:00.000-07:00

You can win this fight
You dont have to listen
To anything I say
Theres nothing I could do
You take my breath away
And all that I believe in
Im slowly drowning here with you

I tell you that Im here
And I tell you what I feel
But I feel youre so far
And I dont know where you are
You tell me what you think
You tell me that youre trying
I want to believe you are
I want to believe you are

And I wont say youre wrong

You can win this fight
You dont have to listen
To anything I say
Theres nothing I could do
You take my breath away
And all that I believe in
Im slowly drowning here with you

Everything I hide
Is held inside your chest
With every single heartbeat
My picture fades to gray
I belong to you
I made you that promise
It's all because of you
I only say the things I do

And I won't say you're wrong

You can win this fight
You dont have to listen
To anything I say
Theres nothing I could do
You take my breath away
And all that I believe in
Im slowly drowning here with you

You can win this fight
Take it so it's done
Again I'll put aside my pride
I can only do so much

You can win this fight
You dont have to listen
To anything I say
Theres nothing I could do
You take my breath away
And all that I believe in
Im slowly drowning here with you

Love this song !!
btw.... He's a korean !! =)
u guys can also go listen to 'by my side' ~

Love In Disguise

2010-08-24T08:38:00.000-07:00

I want to go for leehom's movie... but my schedule... oh god!
he's just so awesome ! =)

2010-08-23T07:22:00.000-07:00

I feel my heart is aching ...
real pain.
for no reason ...
T.T

Bruno Mars - Just the way you are

2010-08-20T11:55:00.000-07:00

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they’re not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She’s so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don’t see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she’d let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She’s so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you’re searching for
Then just stay the same

So don’t even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

Different pathway ~

2010-08-20T01:24:00.000-07:00

Everyone has a different point of view ~

Yeah ! I think this is quite a difficult task for me to study !
being too straight forward like last time doesn't seems to be a good thing.
Seriously, not with this bunch of friends.
New faces, New personalities. New way to get along.
I guess.

I missed my gang so freaking much.
At least, u guys know me well.
I don't have to think so much of what I said.
Because u guys know me the best !
I wish I would tell everything to a person in school.
But, I couldn't find that particular U ! =(

I have my limit to vomit my words now ~
I found it... YUCKs !
That's so not the real me !

I never meant differently for what I said.
& never think of what u thought !

Although the memories is still fresh ~

2010-08-02T08:22:00.000-07:00

当我闭起双眼

那回忆如刚发生似的

唯一不一样的是

你已不会再我未来的日子里

打岔我的生活

因为我相信自己坚持的信念

是不会对我们之间起任何的改变

Again

2010-07-30T07:02:00.000-07:00

Another 2 fella is leaving form 6. + 1 more past few weeks...............

2day is my 1st & probably the last day to talk to them ! =(
Even though I just started to talk to u guys.
but.... Imma gonna miss u guys ! ><

ALL THE BEST ~ Hui Sian, Joshua, Vasyanthan ! =)

2010-07-18T00:28:00.000-07:00

明知那只是巧遇
但却对那小事件 …… 耿耿于怀

All over again~

2010-07-15T08:08:00.000-07:00

I Hate Myself

FOR....

falling again.

I...

spend such a long way to stand up.
thought of being the optimistic one.
thought of being the happy go lucky kind.

But, I just realized.
I'm always standing with one leg.

好久不见？

2010-07-14T05:53:00.000-07:00

从来没想过会再遇见你
4年没见，我竟然还能轻易的把你给认出
虽然没说话
虽然只是擦肩而过
虽然你认不出我
但，

我真的已经很开心了

你过的还好吧

这叫缘分吗？
是我们的缘分吗？

High expectation ?

2010-07-12T01:15:00.000-07:00

Trying my best to enroll ! damn it.
It sound so WRONG~
seriously, I never been to a class which behave so quietly !
Can anyone talk to me ?
Alamak ! Where is all the laughter's ?
I guess 'someone' will be bored to death !
In no time ~ =X
Have to persuade myself ..
NOT TO COMPLAIN ANYMORE ABOUT THIS FREAKING QUIET CLASS !

Not much for 2day. but,
I'm so undecidable whether to take MUET test this year or do it next year...
Hmm.. teacher have so much of confidence in us.
I'm afraid that you're going to be disappointed soon !
Somehow, I'm not the A+ nor A student. that's why.
scared will screw up the whole MUET paper by additional 60 dollar for it ?
worth it or not ?
I got some inspiration from what teacher said just now.
" I think you can give it a try" she said.
just a simple sentences,
I felt happy to heard that from her. =D

What to choose ? take ?
Whatever lar ! @@

Sad case

2010-07-08T07:12:00.000-07:00

So, had a agreement to switch next week ! =(
I'm so gonna miss my beloved sek4 gang.
even though most of the classes are lecture class. but.
老娘 are so not happy with this stupid n stuff.
I just started to felt in love with this class.
now, yucks. the stupid system of this !
!@#$%^&*(

but undoubtedly ,
The bond we had is getting stronger ! =)

I really cherish everything that my friend did to ask teacher to make us stay.

mood swiiiiiiing ~

2010-07-05T08:11:00.001-07:00

Seriously, What is all this shifting about ?
I'm not too sad or frustrated about it .
But a bit disappointed because
DO I HAVE TO GO THROUGH THIS EVEN WHEN I'M IN FORM 6 ?
What a piece of 'sheet' ! =(

I took almost 2 months to fit in.. then now what ?
expecting me to fit in all over AGAIN ?

you wouldn't understand

2010-06-24T08:24:00.000-07:00

I felt so lucky to have those friends that really care about me.
Glad that I found you guys to fill the colours of black and white in my life.
Thanks a lot ! =D

Think I'm being too free this week.
Teacher really gave us a big rest after the holiday.
But I'm guessing this will be the one and ONLY 'relax' week that I'm going to have. =(

Nothing much happen today except I done my biology presentation today.
which I'm so nervous for past few weeks. This is like ALONE work.
luckily the topic I got for that is something that we're quite familiar with.
So, all done ! =)

Then, PA lesson = chit-chat time. ><
having fun for the 2 periods !
Then suddenly some boy screamed !
@@ you wouldn't want to know why they scream !
A dragonfly TERlanded on their table.
then they gave so many excuses.......
XD so sorry that I laughed. but it's a hilarious part !

I rather hate you more than loving you .

Me ain't good listener

2010-06-23T09:09:00.000-07:00

I'm glad that teacher didn't give any homework for us today ! Hurray ~ ^^

Hmm...
I'm kinda wondering. Why am I controlling my anger in my school ?
maybe I'm in a new environment, with new faces I guess.
There's one guy here really trigger my anger.
Just feel like to scold him straight away !
But, I find it NO POINT for doing it !
so, just ignore him for my own good !

Something really bordering me right now.
Having both parents which have different opinion really makes you gone crazy.
Somehow, I don't really understand what's happening. but,
I knew I have to think wisely for my future.
It's ain't easy for you to listen to both of them.
really sucks when you have to make decision when one's opposing it.
I can feel your pain.
but, I'm sorry.
I might not be a good listener.
I'm sorry that I cant make you feel better.

Everything seems wrong when you left us..
can you sense our tears and pain deep inside..
I wish you were here to help us.......

2010-06-14T07:49:00.000-07:00

知道那不属于我
知道早就该放弃
知道那是没可能
但
就是不明白为何还这么痛

the 100 ...

2010-05-23T07:59:00.000-07:00

abandoned my blog for quite a long time...
seeing everything passing by...
seeing everyone moving on with their life...
seeing them getting matured...
& I knew, I'm getting older !

tons of things to tell. to scream. to laugh at. to cry with.
It's so true that peoples come n go.
just the matter of how much they engrave on you heart.
Even when you move on with the pace of the time.
some part deep inside your heart will not be the same. still stick to the past.
never ever move on.

I always wish I can hold on with my tears.
but. everything's around remind me of you.
your passion, your strength, your laughter, your everything.
do you know how much we missed you?
especially grandma.

I knew, you're in a better place.
somewhere over the rainbow. behind the cloud. one of the star.
I knew, all you want is us to stay happy.
I'll,
I promised !

Form 6

2010-05-13T03:36:00.000-07:00

Flour +water + paint + fake lizard ....
the senior really treat the junior well huh ?
Friendly ? Good-looking ? no comment lar wey.

This is the 4th orientation day. Guess the senior having all the fun ! but, somehow it's not as bad as i tot . =D not as worst as how we treated our junior in the previous school .
so, I'm a brand new 'rocker' of the school. the rock school. =X
really miss those days in seksyen 4 !
at least, the song of the school is much more energetic compare to this school ! lolx.

having those taklimat from different teacher for different subject ..
felt so damn stressful even i don't even noe the syllabus yet .

But , I must hold on .. cant giv up.
for my am !

Untitled~

2010-04-25T22:33:00.000-07:00

It's a long way to go .

It has been awhile seen my last post .
I just don't know how to really express my feeling right here in the blog .
It's just like my dairy . I never want to wrote down all this bad memories .
It's a very difficult path to go trough .

Anyway, was away to Oz for a month ! =)
was a longest trip I have ever been ! A month away from my bed n my parents + 2 brothers ~
The feeling is just like a month off ! Lolx.. Off from everything .
Did almost every walk in sydney . & went to movie world b4 we're back to M'sia ~
It's so awesome ! the rides, the shows & the people there . Friendly ~ (favourite part is the scooby doo! >< )

I just don't know what to continue .
hopefully I'm back to be a better person . a girl who can really stay strong . =)
I'm going to continue my studies in form6 & I really hope I can do it well .
& really do well in my life .

almost forgotten . the people the in aussie scold F*** just like splitting their saliva ! @@
Lolx, & We meet a few from Malaysia in Gold Coast . Something funny happen . It's just so Malaysian ! =)
meet a lot of korean too. never forget to mention that their so noisy ! =X beh tahan ~
+ I saw a veterinary course building there in ?? university ! so envy them ~
Lolx.

End my story here. Yesterday went to mid-valley to watch movie. plan to watch the ice kacang puppy love but my brothers want to watch how to train a dragon. at the end, we watched When in Rome.
so unbelievable, we brought my brothers to watch love movie ! XD Funny to see their reaction !
hahaha

心底的魔鬼 ~

2010-03-17T09:52:00.000-07:00

心里的不安

总是我最难甩开的损友

明知道那陷阱是多么的深

多么的黑暗

但总是自杀式的跳进出

叫天不应

叫地不响

你如何才能抽生而出

不问世事 ~

goodbye~

2010-02-16T20:31:00.000-08:00

It's true tat everyone will hav to experience tis part...
y cant we hav to chance to get to know it earlier...
to appreciate every last second tat u're here wif us...
y do u hav to leave us here??

did u realize? when u're gone...
everything seems wrong!
it wasn't perfect anymore.............
it will not be perfect..

I can feel the tears dropin inside..
I can know how much we miss u..
but i do noe,
we hav to face it n let u go

whenever I walk into ur room,
every single memory bounced out of my head..
u bring lots of laughter's to us!
memories tat cant erase 4ever...

I noe I'm greedy but,
I do wish u're here by my side..
but,
tat is a wish tat can never be granted~

14 of February~ 2010

快好起来 !

2010-02-08T19:19:00.000-08:00

打从我出世的那一天
我就是你的孙了
从小就是跟着你们已起住
你每天都早睡早起
身子一向来都很壮
那时候的我
每天都会吵着要你带我和姐姐一起出去拉狗逛街
你总会带我们到游乐场玩
你教我们唱海南歌
陪我们看星星
你特地为我们做了一个摇摇板
种我们爱吃的菜
哪一些都是我们的童年
我和我姐最美好的童年

你的身子
慢慢的变差了
那天你跌倒
结果现在的你
要慢慢的走路
做什么都要慢慢来
需别人的帮助

我... 的心....
我... 很希望你会快点好起来
我... 希望在新年时听见你的笑声

你的笑声....

很动听....

很让我怀念.................

BLG !!! =)

2010-01-30T08:16:00.000-08:00

Should be updating yesterday... but I'm exhausted after the shouting and all......
@@ so, forgiv me ya! ><

yup! I went to the LIVE performance of BOYS LIKE GIRLS !!!
went there wif my sis n her friends... thxx to the driver! =)
screamed like a mad fella !
lolx~ not really scream bcoz of them...
scream bcoz cannot hear wat my sis n the others were trying to tell in the stadium!
(btw, it's a indoor & air-conditioning de leh! )

okie... so lets the "cicak" do the talking! =)

do u noe wat're v doing?!
we're like.... ' i think i cant hear myself already lar!' /
the music are so damn loud n energetic! WOOHOO~

SEE~
organised by NOKIA!
We're there to try our luck to get tat phone for only RM66 !!!
But, we're tooo late! ==
thxx to the driver lor! hahahaha

Khalil Fong !!! ><
shouting: BLG ( boys like girls ).. but we do it the other way!! GLB !!! lolx

Can u see~
he's pointing at ME !!!!! Awww......... ><

it finished at 11++... then we go supper!
AGAIN~ ==
i think tis might be the 6/7 supper in tis month!!
FATs floating around! @@

Then some chit-chat & ZZzzzzzz~

the next thing i found out is.....
I'm havin a bad sore-throat...

OH NO~ T.T

-

2010-01-19T09:06:00.000-08:00

Tick-tock.. Tick-tock.....
Time flies....

( really dono how to write down wat i did tis few weeks after SPM..)
my brian didnt function as good as b4 huh.... =( i think i'm gettin older! ==

Was thinking to get a job......... but my mom..
Was thinking to register myself for coll...... but I'm lost.. =(
juz ignore the stuff which hurt my brian ! lalalala~
Erm...
did some calculation juz now..
I hav spend more than 35 days of my long long break...
Wow... 30 days wif juz a blink of eyes...
tat's fast !
let me think wat did I did...............
I packed my books, painted my house, shopping, outing.........
& the recent one I did was enjoy my 1 week in Kuantan...
my sis, cousin & I was like,,, supper everyday....
tot it will be boring week... but it ends up fun & tiring (especially the day to Gambang waterpark!) =)
not much to mention lah! haha...

actually.. as i wrote until here....
I really feel like goin back to school leh...
coz, staying at home is not as fun as i tot last time when i'm still schooling......
it's funny rite? tis long break might be to long for me!
I'm afraid tat I'll fa mei......... ><
but wat I missed the most is the memory we had in school.........

I miss u, u, u, u, u, u, u, u...... U !!!! =)

I sesat again... cant get a rite title for tis post......
== OMG... wat happen to me! =="

Which way to go?!

2010-01-11T19:58:00.000-08:00

It seems most of them going or started their college....
but here I'm.....
dono which path way should I go...
Form 6 ?! college ?!
Veterinary science ?! Interior design ?!

............
............
............

Even went edu fair also didnt help much....
==

if I'm goin for vet...
I think I might going for form 6...
but..............................
I'm scared...........
I scared tat I cant do it.....

I'm juz confused!

my crazy life 1

2010-01-07T06:33:00.000-08:00

sometimes.... I think i'm crazy.... but now... i'm sure that i'm crazy!!!
>< y on earth am I saying something like tat????? hahahaha

yesterday... o should I say 2day....
anyway.. my sis & I painted my house.. in the middle of the nite.. >< do u noe how fun it is?!
lolx.... tired but fun !!!! it is my 1st time ever to stay up 24 hours without taking any nap juz to do painting... lolx..... the next thing I wanna try is to sleep 24 hours... hahaha.... then it'll be fair!!! ><

I'm having fun in a different way...
but i still wish i'll be in school study like the others... ==
my bed is calling me.......
BYE~ =)

I miss my school life !!!

2010-01-04T20:29:00.000-08:00

damn tired now......
juz finish painting the ceiling of my house!!!
Great !!
i think i hurted myself... juz like usual... ><

see..
nothing to post.....

BORING...

now..
i wish I can go back to school like my brother...
somehow... I hav to face the reality tat I'm old !! =(

I miss school so damn much!!! T.T

100th post for tis year!!!

2009-12-31T04:01:00.000-08:00

This is the last post for 2009... & it's also the 100th post...
lolx... purposely make it on to 100 de...
so..
post sumthin diff...... =)

Boys over flower !!! 花样男子 ... ^^
which Currently falling for it..... ><

Kim Bum, Yi Jung is sooooooo handsome...................................................

Hyun Joong, Ji Hoo also handsome................

......
.........
gone real crazy.... but frasturated...
bcoz cant find the last episode at youtube!!!! T.T

anyway! can watch it on 8tv.. ><

lolx... I knew Michelle going to ask me for Go Jun Pyo...

so... nah !!!!! Lee Min Ho....

& Kim Joon, Woo Bin....

tat's all ba!!!! =)
the 100th post!!!!
& the last post for 2009~

Bye <3

sign-ing OFF 2009

2009-12-31T03:03:00.000-08:00

All tis memories will never I forget !!!!!!

To all my dearest FRIENDs & DARLINGs..

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!! =)
I'm sure....
Goodluck will always smile on U guys!!! ><

Last Chapter of 2009

2009-12-31T02:17:00.000-08:00

hahaha...
suppose to be free n updating my blog....but somehow.... busy n lazy blocked my way....
so... make it a short one ba!! =)
went Penang n Kuantan tis 2 weeks.... really did enjoyed myself... although something doesnt go accordingly.... but anyway, I'm HAPPY!! =) those pictures... i think.. my sis will post on fb ba..
Erm.... celebrated my birthday on 26 Dec at hometown (Kuantan) wif my aunt who juz came back from Australia!!! Miss her so much~ Thxx <333><><>< hope I'm not too late...
1 more thing... addicted wif a comp game... plants vs.zombies... NICE.. thxx to my bro for teaching.. lolx.. almost the whole family of mine also the same.. who should I thxx next?! O.o... Yi Shiuan (my cousin)... lolx... juz to bring up ur name here!! dont too high o~

I think tat's all gua...
ofcoz..
went mid-valley, sunway, 1 U, petaling street to shop for cloth!! =)

stop here... although not goin out countdown tis year!!!
so long 2009~ =)

I'm proud of myself !! ><

2009-12-24T23:08:00.000-08:00

I'm soooooooooooooo sorry bout tis....
but, i'm proud of myself...
bcoz I killed a

Cockroach!!!!!
by using ridsect... ^^"

Lolx
I'm sorry to kill u...
But....
><
My proud of myself now!!

Anyway, MERRY X-MAS!!! HoHoHo

Food Haunting Trip

2009-12-20T18:56:00.000-08:00

This might be the first time I think tat I felt so tired of eating!!!

this trip back to Penang wasn't mean to visit my aunt but haunting for food!!
All thanks to my dad who driving & my cousin who tell us where to get the delicous food!!
I'm really very full! @@

guess will write more detials bout it after I come back to KL...
still in penang & was waiting steambot to get started!
Lolx
><

Too High?!

2009-12-16T21:18:00.000-08:00

Ha......
I'm way too excited now!!!!! ><

Going to meet my primary friends soon...... Lolx...

I know.....
Tis is juz a normal thing...
Yet,
I dunno y am I tis HIGH...... ^^

Tired !

2009-12-12T22:35:00.000-08:00

Another day without touching any books! ><

don feel like to mention wat I did....
But, nothing to post..... so, hihihi...... simply write some dairy here!
okie.........start!

wake up at 6.... then went for the undang ceramah thingy..... wif michelle!!!
lolx...
It's boring.. but somehow, we did had some fun there! =)
N..... tat took almost half a day!
wth..... == ends up didn't celebrate wif my mom ...
I'm sorry! N HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! =)
today, my far far away de relative havin weddin dinner... again!
lolx.. but my sis, my cousin n I went mid-valley instead of the dinner....
ate lots of things... FULL!! @@
then.. plan to go watch movie de........
but.... It was so crowded...
until I beh tahan waitin then give up on buyin tickets..
anyway, not much movie on show...
2012..... watched! twilight..... my cousin watched! storm warriors..... my sis watched!
N most are full o juz left the front seat...
so, NVM lar! watch the next time...
then... go window shoppin... found some nice T-shirt!
next time bring my mom go.. lolx~ ask her to pay!!!! thank you mom! XD
at last, took a cab back....
bcoz we're tired of waitin my dad to finish their dinner only come n fetch us....
so, fully utilize my day.... == lolx.. not really!!!

hav to open my books n really get my mind back! ><
haih.....my aunt goin to bring my sis to sunway!!!
........................er................................
Can U bring me along?!
Ya... I certainly noe wat's the answer! ><
NO FAIR!

until next time! =)

2009-12-11T21:09:00.000-08:00

It's difficult to continue a conversation wif the others who don't understand wat's Ur intention....

o shall I say tat u're sensitive?!?! ==

Hang on!

2009-12-10T15:03:00.000-08:00

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Suppose to be studying ..... but......................................
Lost the study mood already !! ==

my sis finally finished her last paper 2day........haih, sure she's happy-ing now!!

nothing to post............
Hav to continue to study!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ><
HELP!
nothing is entering my brain~
==

My word towards U~

2009-12-08T23:56:00.000-08:00

Here I'm...

Officially signing-in!!

Hurray! XD [ya.. I know.. I still left 1 more paper to go! shh..........]

Feel like to post something on the blog.. but dono how to express my current mood..
it's juz complicated! happy, excited, exhausted, sad n bla bla bla...
I'm gonna miss the school real much !!

Miss the friends who always there for me.. the jokers.. the teachers who always nag us.. n ofcoz the memories we had 2gether... the time we having fun n study together n not forgotten.. the time we slept while teachers are teaching !! >< ...
OMG! I cant believe I actually miss the boring lesson we had in school!!
Somehow, we will not experience it anymore in the future~

Tot will cry 2day.. when seeing my friends hugging each other n wishing them good luck in the future.. BUT Surprisingly, I didnt! N I'm proud of myself!!! =P
Anyway, we gonna meet each other 1 day rite?! ...Ya, for sure! not to forget the tech we had! Do pick up my phone when I call ok?! =)

Suddenly miss the 2 crazy friends of mine(Jackie n Michelle).. my life will definitely bored if I never meet both of U! Gossip,jokes,crazy stuff all we shared.. N the time we sang oldies song n dance SORRY SORRY n NOBODY!! XD tat's the best time when I'm wif both of u.. thanks a lot for the memories~
Ofcoz, my dearest Yeo yin, Zhi lei n Emily.. ya.another crazy friends of mine.. always laugh till the max. sharing ur secret 2gether..although sometimes we might not get along too much.but we still care for each other! luv u all!<3
Realized something.. Most of my friends are crazy n funny..O I should say... ALL !! ^^(no offense k)..

Oh yeah.. goin to hav a long break after tis! XD planned lots of things. Included driving lesson! == hiah, my mom n sis keep saying tat they cant imagine how I drive.N even myself also dont hav any confidence to do so.. sacred will get lost o mayb bang myself to a tree. == bcoz I'm clumsy.N I hav 2 admit it!!

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Okie, hav to end it here.. if not, i dont noe how much longer I'm goin to post! To all my friends,

ALL THE BEST IN EVERYTHING!! =)

luv chlo3*

2009-10-24T12:22:00.000-07:00

Hihi all..
I'm chloe cousin!! ^^V

Wahahaha

bye bye~~

答案 ?!?!

2009-10-14T22:11:00.000-07:00

很久每把心事说出口了
就好像习惯了把一切往肚子里吞一样说不出口
很少有机会跟身边的朋友聊天了各有各的事情忙着
好不习惯这样的感觉

今天跟那朋友聊了一阵子
他总是说起那一年发生的事
他问了一堆问题
那一些问题问得很好因为我也找不到答案
那一年发生过的事就像一场戏剧
短短的几月可以有很多很多的故事和密底
真的不知道如何回答
不知道不确定

但我知能确定一件事
那一切就已经是过去的事了
不管我多在意也不可能改变的事实
所以的不到答案的问题就忘了算了
至少我们还是一堆爱开玩笑的朋友
那就已经足够了

2009-10-03T22:46:00.000-07:00

当一切不再一样时。。。

我是不是也应该跟着改变

可是。。。

我不懂得如何彻底的遗忘。。。

2009-10-03T05:48:00.000-07:00

那些话。。。

永远都没勇气对你说

也不会有勇气问你

所以

只好让它留藏心里。。。

还好那只是差一点

2009-10-01T20:33:00.000-07:00

今天

走进校时
不小心踢到一颗石头
差一点跌倒

老师报告完毕准备走回班时
踏到沟渠的铁片
第二次
差一点跌倒

到辅导室找老师回班时
被一群在追跑的学生撞到
第三次的
差一点跌倒

笨手笨脚的
在校闹了一天
很庆幸
就只是
差一点

九月的风浪

2009-09-20T22:07:00.000-07:00

真的搞不懂
为什么每一次接近大考时
总会心情低落无法专心

发现
原来自己
是多么的不敢向父母说出心里话
每当听到他们说我不好时
我会不知觉的感受到一股莫名的压力
让我不知所措

无言

听笑话的习惯

2009-09-19T23:12:00.000-07:00

去年
我就养成了一个习惯
那就是
只要我不开心
我都习惯叫你说个笑话
不管那笑话多烂
我还是会忍受不了而笑了

去年的你
经常借我你的耳朵
听我说我的心情
我们就像兄妹一样
感情很好

今年
你还是依旧的帮助我
不一样的是
我们很少说话了
那一天
当我真真需要你的笑话时
你却告诉了我
你已经长大了
不再爱说笑话时
我才明白
我不能太依赖你
因为
你不再是以前的你
你不再像以前那样了解我了

朋友
谢谢你曾经说过的笑话
我会永远记住的
但我也明白
笑话不再是我的良药

Life still move on ~

2009-09-19T22:14:00.000-07:00

我还记得那一年那一天
那一些热闹快乐的日子

但,
现在一切都不一样了
我很珍惜我的友谊
只要认识我的朋友都会明白
我曾经因为朋友放弃自己喜欢的事
对我而言, 朋友真的很重要
我很珍惜每一段友谊
但,
这一次我不懂 ...

小学时,
身边的朋友都会无事的跟我闹翻
每一次我都怀疑是自己没让他们认识真真的我
所以我会很在意友谊
甚至还怕失去朋友
或许是我害怕寂寞
不晓得 ...

我不明白 ...
为什么那会发生在我身上 ?
为什么一定要我明白那道理 ?
友谊, 并不一定是永恒的 ?
我不相信.. 不 !!
但, 这一切的发生 ..
能让我不相信吗 ?

你问我为什么沉闷不说 ..
那我问你 ..
我说了.. 你会明白吗 ?
我说了.. 你会帮到我吗 ?
我很辛苦.. 难过..
不是害怕失去,
而是害怕当初的坚持,
只是一个谎言 !!!
一个足以让我相信了十几年的谎言 !!!!

哭过了,

生气过了,

烦恼过了,

只知道.........

心疼

the THOUGHT of mine

2009-09-17T00:40:00.000-07:00

Again ...
I'm confused !!!
for the thought inside of me ...
which I used to hold on ...
it seem different ...

I'm worried ...
wif myself ...
it seems weird when there wasn't a smiley face on my face ...
the emo look ...
should hav hide deep inside ...
but I cant stand wif it anymore ...
the tears is dropin ...
N i can do nothing wif it ...
I wish there's someone who can really talk to ...
there is ...
but, I juz donno how to express it ...
I'm sorry !

Wish I could stop thinkin all bout tis !!!

~ Random ~

2009-09-06T09:17:00.000-07:00

There hav been awhile from the previous post...
everyone of us are sittin for the trial's...
never wish to mention it ~
skrewed up lots of paper I think...
must hav try even more harder than this !!! =.=

so many things happened within this few months...
but i really can't find a suitable person to talk to ...
should hav say that I donno how to express it out...
No idea...

chow !
continue to 'boil' my books !
=) wish me luck ~

2009-08-29T20:03:00.000-07:00

一个星期的假期...

这样 ,

就完了 !!!

这是一个...

永远都忘不了的假期~

两种心情的交错

2009-08-23T20:52:00.000-07:00

那一天
我很快乐
做上自己爱做的事
脸上带着一个满足的笑脸

那一天
我很难过
因为遇上了一件事
脸上却带着害怕的心
你们来到我家
吓倒我们
现在还有那一种沉重的心
让微笑从此在我们脸上消失
你们答应我们的事却没做到
让我们损失惨重你们却贪得无厌
或许是我们天真相信你们

怨恨你们但感激你们没伤害我们

22/8/09

Boring ~

2009-08-04T12:18:00.000-07:00

I hav no idea wat I did the whole day long...
other than sittin infront of the tv & comp!
Hey gal ! aren't u suppose to study rite now?!
the only useful thing i did is...
sleep..eat..& go tuition..
meet Maria & jokes around...
But,V did pay attention to him!
rite?! MARIA ?!lolx =)

Recieve a letter 2day...
>.< I'm going for a competition sooner o later...
Nervous ! & Happy...
Finally, I realize wat i love to do the most in my life..
tis letter gives confidence in me..
although still hav a task to go on..
but still,
I'm proud of myself !!XD

Btw,
My stomach juz makes me sick..
hav to eat exactly when I'm hungry,,
No delay !!
If not.. I'll be suffer.. again!!
no more freedom!!
stupid stomach!T.T

should really get it started!!

My stomach ~

2009-08-03T22:32:00.000-07:00

Went to a doctor... not for fun... duh?!
found myself sick .... stomach pain!!
really really pain... until my mom said tat my face is pale...
guess wat happened to me?!
GASTRIC !!
actually tis is not a big case... I think...
but the doc said something....

Doc : NO asam laksa... NO tom yam... NO curry... NO carbonate drinks... NO cold water... NO coffee... NO tea...
[conclusion : NO sour, spicy & cold foods/drinks]..
for 3 years !!
My mom : Huh?! 3 days isit?!
Doc : NO... 3 years!!! *wif a serious face...*

when the doc said tat...
i juz feel like laughing at it!!
Come on... aren't tis juz a small case?!
But ....
He said tat i should be caution of wat i eat &
the time i having my breakfast, lunch & dinner...
He said my stomach is not as strong as before...

totally speechless !!! =.="

my mom said tat i should sleep early...
she said tat i might caught on gastric bcoz
of stayin up late in the middle of the night...
Haiz ~ wat can I say... other than follow them...

There u go... My new solution !!! =)

NO more over on9-ing...

NO more stayin up in the mid-night...

[tat's all... i guess!]

Btw, TRIALs....
dunno how to get well-prepared for it !!
can't really manage to finish it all I guess...
anyways, I'll try my very best to complete it !!
[my to do list]

1st of all,
should I take good care of my health b4 I starts the war?!
Yea... most probably...
juz if I can wifstand the temptation of food!!

All the best wey ! =)

2009-07-27T22:52:00.000-07:00

Juz wondering ...

Y do I speak without thinking ....

[ Juz can't believe what I hav spoke to teacher ... ]

实在有很多说不出的话啊！

2009-07-24T23:43:00.000-07:00

虽然，

我不太会表达我的心底话 ...

但我真得要让你知道 ...

你的付出

我们都闻到，听到，看到，感觉得到的 !!!!

请你别难过,

因为我们也会很难过 !!!

让我们一起加油吧~

请你告诉我 …

2009-07-24T23:11:00.000-07:00

… 为何你还没出现，
你就要让我们难过 ??? …

这一次 ...
是我第一次 ....
让我对你有同感 ... ...
开始希望你的到来 ~
以往 ,
当有人多么的渴望你的出现时,
总会觉得她们不懂得珍惜我们省下的时间 ...
但如今,
我明白了他们的意思 ...
他们不是不懂得珍惜 ...
而是 ,
太珍惜我们剩余的时间 !!!
才不希望像现在一样 ...
每一周都不会少了____ 喜怒哀乐 ~~

我开始不明白 ...
为何当我们正在专心做某件事时 ...
'你'....'它'...'它'...'它'...
都会来缠着我们不放 !!!!

2009-07-18T23:47:00.000-07:00

Thxx everyone ...

Thxx for always stand by my side when I'm falling apart ...

I knew tat I should try even harder...